Amazing

I wonder all the time why God loves me so much. He loves me so much I can feel it, and He does specific things when I need them most just to show me He is with me. I admit, nearing the end of pregnancy, I have gotten overwhelmed in moments and been emotional. I've been nesting, driving my husband crazy, and praying for lots of different things with my mind all over the place. The other night, I told Jake I was beginning to worry about where Bryce would stay when it was time for me to return to work. I hadn't been overly concerned until lately, because I've learned to trust God and know that everything will fall into place. After all, He's been faithful in showing me that constantly over the past 4 years. Jake said he'd ask Avery's daycare director once more just to see. He asked her yesterday morning, and as we thought, there was still no opening. We were set for August, but she was unable to take him until then. Exhausted after work, I headed to pick up Avery. When I arrived she was outside playing. The director came up to speak with me to ask how things were going. She told me how Jake had asked her that morning about a spot for Bryce and that she told him she just didn't have one. As I began to respond to that, she said that I wouldn't believe it but a few hours after speaking with Jake, she had a call from a parent. The parent told the director that her child would be staying at home with his grandmother in a few weeks! I am sure I looked rather surprised! She proceeded to tell me that Bryce could have that spot. As she looked at me smiling, I told her how I'd been trying not to worry about it and praying that something would just happen. I could have jumped the fence and hugged her! All I could think is - once again you provided Lord! I excitedly got in my car thinking my afternoon just perked up, but then, it got even better. Usually, I have to pull things out of Avery. She is not one to begin conversation nor tell me what she has learned. She is usually a "repeater"- she repeats whatever I say, rather than coming up with her own answers. This afternoon was different. Avery began to tell me about what she did with her speech therapist that day with no prompting! Closer to home, she began to count to 10 perfectly and tried to get to 20 too! To top things off, I had spoken with my mom before picking Avery up, and she was telling me how Dad's speech therapist was surprised he is doing so well. He maintained his weight the past week, and is making it okay with no feeding tube. Dad's throat is coated with ulcers; however, due to his last surgery, he hasn't regained total feeling in that area, so it is actually helping him to be in less pain. Dad has lost around 60 pounds through this treatment, but thankfully, he had weight to lose. He has only one chemo treatment left that I know of, and should finish up with radiation by the 25th of January! They should be able to head back home that day to meet their new grandson!
It's funny that our pastor spoke about recognizing all the amazing things God does daily last week. There are so many times we overlook them. Since my pregnancy with Avery, I've had a mindset to take notice every day, and it has changed my way of thinking and made me so grateful for this incredible God who is in control and with us through every little (and big) thing that comes our way.
Jake woke up this morning with the stomach virus, and Avery has had sinus junk with some fever. Sometimes, I just want my mom, and she is not here. Things haven't completely been worked out with my replacement at work yet either. At this point of pregnancy, I would love to sit in a corner and cry! There are so many emotions and fears that pop up as I think about having Bryce this Wednesday. I would love to say that I am just sitting here, soaking in a normal pregnancy as I excitedly await his arrival, but I am not to the fullest extent. It takes constant prayer and reliance to keep myself on track! God is good and he is blessing me beyond measure- I just have to trust and focus on that!

John 14:27: Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

Matt 11:29: Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

1 Pet 5:7: Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Josh 1:9: Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”